so went to Linda's and told her basically restated the blog from yesterday..and the Lord spoke through linda and said...(beware, this may be very obvious to some people and way too wordy for some others...sometimes putting words to revelations is more complicated than the actual idea itself...ha!)
As a Believer we always are striving to live in our present reality...what do we know to be sin right now? what do we know to be Truth right now? what is the revealed will of God right now? we are constantly praying for the Lord to make us new..for the Lord to reveal His character and apply it to our lives. He is always changing us, always growing us in Him, thus, always changing our present reality...and revealing more to us every day. (Example of this in the stitches situation: because Jackson had been so independent outside and careful and good with the dogs, and never finding trouble outside, my current reality was that he was ok to have some independent (supervised from the window) playtime in the back yard. since the incident with the fall and the stitches, i have a new current reality. it has now been revealed to me that Jackson needs me outside with him when he plays until he is older. This change in idea of what is safe for jackson, doesn't mean that I was sinning by letting him in the backyard before or that i was being a bad mom..or that i was to blame for his accident. now, however, i am called to live in light of my new reality.)
The realization that I am not to blame for his 8 stitches..for his pain..for his suffering..has really helped me grow and learn from the experience..and not want to crawl in the closet and hide from my role as a mom.
just thought an update would be in order.
thanks for your prayer!
Thank you Jesus, for your hand of protection and for sanctifying me in the midst of perceived chaos..