The Morse Family

Beyond Me

Beyond Me

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

some goings and comings in descending order

for my friends who don't do facebook :)

renee' visited!

yo gabba gabba at the fox (we won assured :)

fun times at the pumpkin patch

jackson got booed (this thing they do in our new neighborhood where they drop at treat at your door at dark and run..then you have to do it to two other neighbors)

bunko ladies night at the clubhouse in boulder springs

jackson read bible on sofa with blanket (his own set up)

jackson turned two

granddaddy came to visit (my dad)

jackson got his first haircut


the shot you have all been waiting for (taken 2 weeks ago) (8 week non-baby bump)

thanks for all of your prayers and offers to visit.  I am feeling very cared for by you :) everyday is either really easy or really, feels normal..which is good :) 

Monday, October 25, 2010


this dark, rainy, thunderstorm is giving me great is matching my inside. here is a look:

i just never thought hard when i was thinking of moving to an almost brand new 4br/3.5ba with a rocking chair porch and a pool and sod...with a new super cool fridge..and a new super cool tv..with a really comfy king bed and a shelf system for my a neighborhood where jackson can play without being hit by a semi going by the house...i never thought darkness. i never though isolation. never occurred to me that this would be hard. that i would be sad. that life would go from a breeze to an immediate struggle. i feel alone. i feel abandoned. i feel like everything is a year away..and then when people ask me with this knowing smile in their eyes if i am "loving my new house"..i feel ungrateful if i say anything but, "it is a true blessing". because let's face it, friends, it is a blessing from God. it is amazing. it is more than i EVER in a million years thought the Lord would entrust to me and my family. but it is hard in the very same breath. no friends around. i feel bad asking anyone to visit because of the distance they are required to travel. no golden pantry i can walk to when i forgot to grab milk..20 minutes is the closest distance i can drive for friendship or activity. even typing this i feel guilt...i feel like i am being given all of these blessings and i am "Lord, I want more.." but really i am just wanting to be real in attempts to remind you, my readers, that no matter what things you have been blessed is meaningless without fellowship, without connections, without Christ.

i was 8 years old and Christmas was coming...i couldn't wait..i knew i was getting a bike because i saw it in the shed with the bows already on it..i couldn't sleep at night for days. Christmas eve came and i laid with my eyes closed all night couldn't sleep, couldn't even relax...then finally the sun broke the horizon and i jumped out of my bed and ran into the living room..there was my bike with 5 pink bows tied around it next to the Christmas tree full of other presents. at the end of that day, when all of the presents had been opened, all of the trash thrown away, and my bike's tire tread worn down from all of the bike riding up and down the street..i layed in bed unfulfilled...sad even.

Ecclesiastes 6

1 I have seen another evil under the sun, and it weighs heavily on men: 2 God gives a man wealth, possessions and honor, so that he lacks nothing his heart desires, but God does not enable him to enjoy them, ...

matt 6:19-20

19"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.

praying this in expectation of what the Lord can do.

Psalm 40:1-3 (New International Version)

Psalm 40
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

1 I waited patiently for the LORD;

he turned to me and heard my cry.

2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,

out of the mud and mire;

he set my feet on a rock

and gave me a firm place to stand.

3 He put a new song in my mouth,

a hymn of praise to our God.

Many will see and fear

and put their trust in the LORD.

4 Blessed is the man

who makes the LORD his trust,

who does not look to the proud,

to those who turn aside to false gods. [a]

5 Many, O LORD my God,

are the wonders you have done.

The things you planned for us

no one can recount to you;

were I to speak and tell of them,

they would be too many to declare.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

news flash

the only thing more stressful than moving into a new house is being pregnant and sickish while moving into a new house :)

i am not finding tons of empty time to blog, but I did want to make sure all of my blogging friends know that I am in fact pregnant (9wks-due may 27th)..and have not fallen off of the face of the earth. One of these days I am going to have free time to upload pictures and update this blog properly.

until then, love well.

Monday, October 11, 2010

the verdict just in..moving not as stressful as having a baby..but pretty darn close!

i don't have long...because i have boxes staring at me and food cooking on the stove..but had to write a few lines before i explode

here is a list of the blessings that i have been experiencing the past 3 days since we moved into our new house:
screens on windows means that you can sleep with windows open
fridge with built in water dispenser means that you can have cold filtered water anytime of the day..and never have to remember to refill the brita
i love the feeling of finishing unloading a box and throwing it in the garage
having a screened in porch is nothing new for us..but having one with a ceiling fan is sure an added bonus
floor to ceiling (exaggerated) windows all around you as  you eat at the breakfast table is sure nice in the morning and at night when the sun sets right through the breakfast area window
real grass
2 sofas in the living room means that i can either snuggle with jack on his sofa OR spread out on my own sofa
when i have to get up in the mid night to use the facilities..i don't have to climb over my husband
the computer is in an office instead of in the living room

ok, it is the little things, folks.

my daddy comes tomorrow..and jackson's 2nd birthday is thursday..with party leaves sunday...then life may get a little less crazy :)

until then. love.