this day

I have waited to post details in case i were to actually go into labor on my own..but today is quite possibly a big day...

you can pray.
last week dr visit i was 4 cm dilated
thurs lost plug
have continued to lose cervical mucus everyday after that
had bloody show on thurs and fri
thought for sure I woudn't make it through the weekend and dr agreed
dr is going out of town this thurs-monday
bec of my status and his absence we want to induce today at noon
the hospital requires an amnio in order to do that before 39 w and i am 38.4w
at 815a today i will have the amnio
at 10ish i will find out if the babies lungs are developed enough to induce
at 12 i am scheduled at the hospital for an induction

so

please be praying..praying for wisdom of the dr's, praying for me and jack as we want to glorify God and roll with His plan no matter how different it is from our plan..that we would be secondly aware of His sovereignty in all things big and small.


Romans 11

33 Oh, how great are God’s riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his ways!

34 For who can know the Lord’s thoughts?
Who knows enough to give him advice?
35 And who has given him so much
that he needs to pay it back?

36 For everything comes from him and exists by his power and is intended for his glory. All glory to him forever! Amen.


will update facebook as things happen..for those of you not on facebook, i will try to post back here as soon as I can...

please remind me

when all of this pregnancy stuff is behind me..and i am starting to talk about doing it all again..will you remind me..

hemorrhoids (anusol and those freezer pops are the only things that bring any kind of relief and it is oh, so brief..it doesn't really count as relief--don't even ask what I do with the freezer pops)


some weird internal bruise above my belly button that covers 1/4 of my tummy that hurts ALL.THE.TIME.


the pelvic bone pain that I have had since weeks after i found out that i was pregnant that keeps getting worse and worse..now i can't even roll over in bed without loud grunting


this odd hip thing that happens that prevents me from being able to walk at certain points in the day..baby in weird position on top of my hip bone...one theory.


the crying 


sitting after dinner with acid in the back of my throat because i can't get it to go down into my stomach.

can't pick up a toy from the floor, my cell from my purse on the floor board, clothes from the inside of the washer

moments of no air when i breathe in

unable to properly be consistent with disciplining my 2 year old because he knows mommy won't run after him

sleeping on a plastic pad that moves every time i flip over for fear of ruining our new mattress that we L.O.V.E.

this ugly purple stretch mark that is drawing a diagonal line from my pelvic bone to my belly button

my son thinks that women can't pick up balls from the ground.."only daddies can do that"--bc he never remembers a time when mommy played ball with him when he didn't have to go pick it up and hand it to me

the first pregnancy was the one where I was able to power walk until the end..and felt like super woman on steroids until full term. NOT THE SECOND ONE.

please remind me

and I am sure I will say...I sure hope I will say, "it was all totally worth it."