ok so the last post would be incomplete without this one

i was driving home tonight..and have tons of time to think because i have to drive to africa. well only halfway to africa, but still 25 minutes is tons of time. and i was recounting the conversations i had earlier that night..and i heard my voice saying to a friend earlier that evening, "if it is not one thing it is another"...and the Lord used that sentence that i had spoken to nudge me toward His truth.

i think i should be able to find satisfaction in a house, in a friendship, in a pregnancy..in a ____ fill in the blank..and whatever is in the blank makes me crazy as i try to be satisfied. in the case of yesterdays post it was like this..i want to be at peace in this pregnancy, i want a guarantee that everything will be good, or a guarantee that everything will be bad..i want to know..to be in control..i can't know, i can't be in control..it all makes me so unsettled and emotional.

because i am human..and my heart longs for perfection and ultimately heaven..there is nothing that will satisfy it. it is always going to be unsettled..always going to be searching..always going to come up empty.

well, always when it seeks to be filled with anything other than jesus. anything other than His love, His grace, His peace, His strength, and His plan....when He fills it, it won't come up short...it may still feel unsettled or unsatisfied..but it ultimately will never be disappointed. He is always enough..even when His "enough" isn't what I would have thought "enough" to be.. (ie. my worst case scenario, whatever it might be this second..) He will carry me through and will have a greater purpose for His plan than I would have ever dreamed possible.

my life..as a Christ follower..it IS quite a ride. not usually an easy ride, a peaceful ride, or a "safe" ride..but always a ride taking me to a final destination...His arms right now..and His home for an eternity.

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.