tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5714316667662046790.post2495549338430405452..comments2016-07-14T12:36:03.935-07:00Comments on A Fixed Gaze: what is realheather ryan morsehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15119089680171755718noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5714316667662046790.post-1152701276003776192011-04-23T10:46:34.174-07:002011-04-23T10:46:34.174-07:00I wish I had time to post a lengthy post like the ...I wish I had time to post a lengthy post like the lady above, but just know all your feelings are...NORMAL!! I was very sad with Ava because I knew the divorce was coming and there I was having a baby....hard to get very excited about anything with that going on. However, like the lady above said -after a bit...you will wonder how you could have EVER imagined life without a second..AND...you will have peace in knowing that long after you and Jack are gone from this Earth- you have left Jackson a sibling and they will be there to comfort each other through happiness and sadness. I can't wait to see the pictures. <br /><br />I liked my c-section the 2nd time because I didn't have to go through 19 hours of horrific labor pains without any meds....they wouldn't give me an epidural with Weldon until they decided on the emergency c-section..BLAH!!!<br /><br />Love you,<br />AmberStep by Step in Second Gradehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04566747587235984885noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5714316667662046790.post-82426324174716272232011-04-22T17:27:56.784-07:002011-04-22T17:27:56.784-07:00Heather, I totally understand what you are going t...Heather, I totally understand what you are going through. I went through it when I was pregnant w/ Duncan (#2). Things seemed so right with just one child. Why mess with a good thing?? As much as I wanted a 2nd baby, I had kind of resigned myself to not having one after the fertility issues we'd had. Even when we got pregnant naturally (after being told that the ONLY way we could was through in-vitro) I was still like "wait...do I really want this?" Of course, at that point all you can do is move forward and believe that it all happens for a reason. Now that Duncan is here (and almost 2) I cannot imagine life without him, which you undoubtedly will understand. I had c-sections with both kids and while it's not ideal, as long as everyone is healthy in the end, it's worth the pain IMHO. I still look back somewhat longingly to how much easier everything was with one child who was semi-self-sufficient and think, "Wow." Just "Wow." I hated breast-feeding for the same reasons as much as I loved it. I had gotten very used to getting sleep again. Honestly, I didn't think I had enough in me to love 2 children. I was scared. Pregnancy was different 2nd time around. I couldn't seem to enjoy it as much as the 1st time around, things hurt more and I was depressed by the idea of having to have a 2nd c-section. BUT I just kept thinking, "There's a reason for this. There is a reason for this." I, too, was at the same time thinking, "I need to enjoy this b/c it's the last time I get to BE pregnant." Such a mishmash of feelings all at once. Tried explaining it to Doug while crying over folding laundry and I just couldn't find the words. I think he just chalked it up to those "crazy lady preggo hormones". Plus, may I add, that you are one of the most beautiful pregnant women I have EVER seen. Your smile is infectious and you glow!Tara Siddallhttp://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=1849050179419&id=1035641133&ref=notif¬if_t=like#!/profile.php?id=1035641133noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5714316667662046790.post-68366309896301408002011-04-22T17:19:42.054-07:002011-04-22T17:19:42.054-07:00Praying we will get though being "even" ...Praying we will get though being "even" together. It's the strangest feeling to mourn the end of pregnancy but to not have been engaged in the process or to have found much joy in it...to not want to place an abrupt end to your families size, yet not imagine taking care of (or loving) more! What a strange experience this has been! Praying for you precious friend as we experience whAt christ has given and hoping we find every part of the experience hopeful no matter the outcome. He will see us through! You are a wonderful momma. Love ChristineAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com